Book contents
- Frontmatter
- CONTENTS
- Acknowledgements
- List of Figures
- Introduction
- Select Bibliography
- Chronology
- Note on the Text
- Self-Control: A Novel, Volume 1
- Dedication
- ADVERTISEMENT TO THE SECOND EDITION
- CHAP. I
- CHAP. II
- CHAP. III
- CHAP. IV
- CHAP. V
- CHAP. VI
- CHAP. VII
- CHAP. VIII
- CHAP. IX
- CHAP. X
- CHAP. XI
- CHAP. XII
- CHAP. XIII
- CHAP. XIV
- CHAP. XV
- CHAP. XVI
- CHAP. XVII
- CHAP. XVIII
- Self-Control: A Novel, Volume 2
- Editorial Notes
- Silent Corrections
- Textual Variants
CHAP. V
from Self-Control: A Novel, Volume 1
- Frontmatter
- CONTENTS
- Acknowledgements
- List of Figures
- Introduction
- Select Bibliography
- Chronology
- Note on the Text
- Self-Control: A Novel, Volume 1
- Dedication
- ADVERTISEMENT TO THE SECOND EDITION
- CHAP. I
- CHAP. II
- CHAP. III
- CHAP. IV
- CHAP. V
- CHAP. VI
- CHAP. VII
- CHAP. VIII
- CHAP. IX
- CHAP. X
- CHAP. XI
- CHAP. XII
- CHAP. XIII
- CHAP. XIV
- CHAP. XV
- CHAP. XVI
- CHAP. XVII
- CHAP. XVIII
- Self-Control: A Novel, Volume 2
- Editorial Notes
- Silent Corrections
- Textual Variants
Summary
The three following days Laura employed in making arrangements for her journey. Desirous to enliven the solitude in which she was about to leave her only attendant, she consigned the care of the cottage, during her absence, to the girl's mother, who was likewise her own nurse; and cautious of leaving to the temptations of idleness, one for whose conduct she felt herself in some sort accountable, she allotted to Nanny the task of making winter clothing for some of the poorest inhabitants of Glenalbert; a task which her journey prevented her from executing herself. Nor were the materials of this little charity subtracted from her father's scanty income, but deducted from comforts exclusively her own.
Though, in the bustle of preparation, scarcely a moment remained unoccupied, Laura could not always forbear from starting at the sound of the knocker, or following with her eyes the form of a horseman winding through the trees. In vain she looked – in vain she listened. The expected stranger came not – the expected voice was unheard. She tried to rejoice at the desertion: ‘I am glad of it,’ she would say to herself, while bitter tears were bursting from her eyes. She oft en reproached herself with the severity of her language at her last interview with Hargrave. She asked herself what right she had to embitter disappointment by unkindness, or to avenge insult by disdain. Her behaviour appeared to her, in the retrospect, ungentle, unfeminine, unchristian. Yet she did not for a moment repent her rejection, nor waver for a moment in her resolution to adhere to it. Her soul sickened at the thought, that she had been the object of licentious passion merely; and she loathed to look upon her own lovely form, while she thought that it had seduced the senses, but failed to touch the soul of Hargrave.
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- Self-Controlby Mary Brunton, pp. 29 - 34Publisher: Pickering & ChattoFirst published in: 2014