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Fourth Person Singular
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The door to my interior was propped open and a fly buzzed in.
To repossess my thoughts as a car gets repossessed if payment hasn't been made—but what kind of debt is owed, and to whom?
The photos on the wall of his house: dashing then death, like the moment before fainting, the voices on the car radio shifting from the rear to the front speakers, subito fortissimo, then—
syncope
I stood in the loudness of my thoughts like a cut-out superimposed onto the background scene.
Shots of sidebar and awe—
Transparence interests me, wrote Louise Bourgeois in a notebook. I want to be transparent. If people could see through me, they could not help loving me, forgive me.
Within: a chattering of girls who talk & talk, starling murmuration of mathematical chaos across my sky—
Why do you talk so much? What is it that you have to hide?
I pace back and forth like indecision in an old movie.
All of my attention is on a hangnail—I move it to feel the pain—
Thinking off the page: a plane circling over its destination, waiting for a signal to land.
I stand in grass that grows to dune shack roofs, keep to myself—a way of retaining my idea in head, being protective (defensive?), not wanting to adjust the idea to world?
A white truck pulled past the window like a linear wipe, shifting my thoughts to a grainy blankness—
Objects that are near remain out of grasp.
The sun is most beautiful just before it rises, like the unspoken before it reaches the world—
HD: I know, I feel/ the meaning that words hide;/ they are anagrams, cryptograms/ little boxes, conditioned/ to hatch butterflies…
I said I couldn't, and all subsequent text messages were clip clip chopped shrubs, nothing out of order.
I smell it the way I smelled you were hiding something yesterday or a child can smell infection.
Washing lettuce: how the wet leaves sag like the face of propriety when it smiles, no contraction of the m.
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- Fourth Person Singular , pp. 1 - 66Publisher: Liverpool University PressPrint publication year: 2017